My name is Fionna Equidae and that’s a picture of me when I was just three yours old.
My mother Emma had me when she was only 17. She was young and not really cut out to be a mother. She had always wanted to be a singer and when she was 19 she got her big break. She moved to Starlight Shores and became a vocal legend.
She left me with my grandparents. They were always there to play with me, comfort me when I was sad or scared, and to teach me important skills.
I also had my uncle Ethan who chased away the monsters under my bed and read me bed time stories.
My mom’s best friend Jessica Phillips also came by the house a lot. I call her Aunt Jessica. She has two kids of her own and is expecting her third but she never misses any of my school plays or dance recitals.
When I was thirteen mom moved back home. Not because she missed me but because she had vocal nodules and needed to rest. I avoided her most of the time as I didn’t want to let myself get attached only to have her leave again. She did teach me to drive though which was a lot of fun.
Unfortunately the day ended with an argument. I guess my father wants to meet me and my mom doesn’t think I should let him. He abandoned her when she was pregnant and so she doesn’t think he has any right to get to know me. But she abandoned me too so I really don’t think she has a right to make judgements on my father. I am still thinking about whether or not I want to meet him or not.
For my birthday mom gave me her cat. His name is Rembrandt and he is my best friend.
I love caring for him. I play with him, feed him, brush him, etc.
I got several books from the library on cats and am learning everything I can about them.
I have also been reading up on babies.
My uncle Ethan and his girlfriend Maritza just had a baby boy named Franklin.
I adore my little cousin. Ethan and Maritza are both really busy with their medical careers so I offer to babysit every chance I get. I can’t wait to get married and have a house full of kids someday.
For the next couple of years life just continued on. I still hadn’t made a decision regarding Lucas and my relationship with my mom was still rocky at best. Then one day when I was 17 everything changes. While getting out of the shower my grandfather Erwin had a heart attack and passed away. He was 95 years old.
I am devastated. He was like a father to me. He taught me to walk, played games with me, and helped me with my homework. I wasn’t ready for him to go.
Grandma has been a big comfort for me. We often just hold each other and cry. I hope I am a comfort to her as well.
Following grandpa’s death I decided life was too short and that if I didn’t take a chance and meet my father I would regret it later. Mom agreed to come with me for moral support but stayed outside so Lucas and I could have a chance to get to know each other in private.
Things were awkward at first. Neither one of us really knew what to say to the other person.
“I am happy you agreed to meet with me. I know I don’t really deserve this opportunity. I want to say I am sorry for leaving you and your mother. It is no excuse but I was a scared kid. I know now how wrong I was back then. I have heard from people around town how amazing you are and I am sorry I missed out on so much of your life.”
“I have realized lately that life is short and that we need to make the most of each day because we never know when someone’s last day might be. So I am deciding to forgive you and I am hoping we can move forward. I would like to get to know you and my half-brother and sister better.”
He pulled me into a big hug and told me he loved me. I was not ready to say it back but I invited him to my birthday which was coming up in a few months. He promised to be there so we shall see if he keeps his word or not.
Soon it was time for my 18th birthday. I can’t believe all that has happened in these last five years. My grandma decided to throw a big party for me.
She invited pretty much everyone we know. It was a great turn out.
But I was happiest to see that my dad came. I am hoping that we can become really close. Mom was working and didn’t make it to the party. I just don’t see the two of us ever having a relationship.
As I walk toward city hall for my high school graduation I can’t help but wonder what life has in store for me next.