Two pink lines! The test was positive.
I sank to the floor. I couldn’t believe this was happening.
I was broken out of my daze by the honk of the school bus.
There was no way I could let the maid find the test in the trash or worse yet have my brother find it. So I wrapped it in toilet paper and stuffed it back in the box. I threw it in my bag and raced for the bus. I was in such a daze I forgot to grab my coat.
The whole time I was on the bus I kept thinking this can’t be really happening. I cannot be pregnant at 15.
When I got to school several of my classmates were standing around visiting before the first bell rang. I saw my BFF Sarah but didn’t bother to stop and say hello.
The test had been a twin pack so when I got to school I headed straight for the women’s bathroom.
I took the test and it was once again positive. One false positive I would understand but two? Then I had a thought. I got the test from mom’s bathroom. But she wouldn’t have needed a test for the last several years. Maybe the tests had expired and was giving me a false reading. I took a look but no the box was still within the expiration window. I found out later mom had bought the box for Jamiee back when she first suspected she was pregnant with Leo.
I pulled my phone out of my pocket and sent a text to my sister Kim.
“Kim I really need to see you. Can you please come to the house after I get off school?”
“Sure, is everything ok?”
“I am not sure. I need to see you. Can’t talk now need to get to class.”
“Ok, I will see you at 2:30 at the house.”
My first class of the day was math. I was in such a daze that when the teacher asked a question that I should have known I wasn’t paying enough attention to even attempt to answer.
Then in art class my teacher was horrified when my painting looked like something a kindergartner would do.
In gym class we could either do cardio or strength training.
But I just sat on the stability ball with my hand on my stomach. Was I pregnant? Was there a baby growing in there?
Worse of all was chemistry class. We were working with sulfur which smells like rotten eggs.
I got one whiff and was instantly nauseous.
I had to race out of class and down the hall to the bathroom. As I ran by, I heard several of the other students laughing and making jokes at my expense. I remember one student saying, “How does she expect to be a doctor if the smell of sulfur sends her fleeing from the room. I am sure there are worse smells that doctors deal with.”
Somehow I managed to make it through the rest of the day but I don’t remember much I was so preoccupied. As I was leaving school Sarah called me over.
“Hey Kaitlyn, I just wanted to make sure you were ok. I saw you run out of chem and you looked a little green. Well even more green then usual.”
I didn’t want to lie to her but I also didn’t want to say anything until I talked to Kim. “Yeah I am feeling better I said.”
“I know you had the flu last week. You must still be feeling it a little huh.”
“Yeah I guess,” I said.
“Do you want to go do something? Maybe go hang out a the coffee shop or go to the mall?”
“I can’t. I made plans with Kim after school. She is actually probably at the house waiting for me. We can do something this weekend though.”
“Sure. I have to watch my brother on Saturday but how about Sunday. Maybe we can go to the festival.”
“Sure that sounds great,” I said trying to sound more excited then I really felt.
When I got home I found Kim already waiting in my room. As soon as I saw her I threw myself into her arms and just sobbed.
“Oh honey what is wrong?” She asked.
I couldn’t even say anything. I just reached into the bag and handed her the pregnancy test.
“Does this mean what I think it does?” she asked.
“Yes,” I said. “I took it twice and both were positive.”
She of course had questions. “I didn’t even know you were dating anyone,” she said.
“I am not,” I replied.
“Who is the father?”
“His name is Jonathan and that is all I know,” I don’t even know his last name.
“Were you raped?” she asked.
“No,” I said. “It was consensual. I then went on to explain to her about the party and the drinking and waking up the next morning hung over in bed with Jonathan. She wondered if he slipped something in my drink but a assured her he hadn’t. It had never left my sight and I remembered everything the next morning.”
“Ok, so here is what we are going to do,” she said. “Tomorrow I am going to take you to see Dr. Colvin. She was my doctor when I was pregnant with Lee. She is great. She will be able to confirm whether or not you are in fact pregnant. Sometimes those tests can give false readings.”
The next morning Kim and I went to the women’s clinic and were greeted by Nurse Kelsey. She was very friendly and told us to have a seat and we would be called back shortly.
There were some other people in the waiting room. A man and his very pregnant wife. I felt like the man was judging me.
Also a woman who was by herself. I am not sure how far along she was but she was showing slightly.
Kim seemed totally at ease and chatted away with them.
I couldn’t even speak I was so nauseous.
I ended up running to the bathroom.
To throw up.
When I came out of the bathroom Nurse Kelsey was ready to take us back to the exam room.
“So I see here you think you might be pregnant. What makes you suspect that?” she asked.
“Well I have been nauseous, I missed my period in January, and I took two home tests and both where positive.”
“Ok, and when was the first day of your last period?”
“And are you always regular.”
“Yes,” I said. “I get it consistently every 28 days.”
“I am going to draw some blood and then the doctor will be in soon. When I leave you can change into this gown and get up on the exam table.”
While we waited Kim tried to distract me by telling me some story about her son Leeroy but I was too freaked out to pay any attention.
After what seemed like forever Dr. Colvin finally came into the room. “So we got your blood work back and your hCG levels are elevated so you are in fact pregnant,” she said.
I just sat there in shock. Up until this point I had held out hope that both home tests had given me false positives.
“Well let’s take a look shall we,” she said.
I was so nervous. Kim grabbed my hand which I was super thankful for. I was not ready for this to be happening. I am 15. I should be worried about taking my drivers test NOT not having a baby.
“There is your baby,” she said. “Judging by what I am seeing here and what you told Nurse Kelsey, I would estimate the date of conception to be around January 1st. Does that sound about right?”
“Yes,” I said. “I um slept with someone during a New Years Eve party.”
“Well based on this, I estimate your due date to be around September 24. I would like to see you again in two weeks.”
I got dressed and just sat there in a daze. I still couldn’t believe this was happening.
Kim gave Dr. Colvin a hug and thanked her for getting us in on such sort notice. Dr. Colvin gave me some vitamins and told me to call her anytime in the next two weeks.
Afterwards Kim suggested we go sit at a coffee house and talk.
“Are you ok?” she asked.
“Honestly, I don’t know.” I said.
Before I could elaborate I got a whiff of something from the bakery that had my stomach rolling. I managed to not throw up but Kim figured we better head home.
When we got to the house she pulled me in for a big hug.
She asked me if I planned to tell Kevin but I wasn’t sure. It was one thing to tell my sister, but not only was I embarrassed at the idea of talking about such things with my brother I also really feared his anger and disappointment. He had trusted me when he left me home alone that night and I had betrayed that trust.
When we got inside I was surprised to find a ton of people over.
“What’s going on?” I asked. “What are all of these people doing here?”
“Stephan and I didn’t want to say anything until it was final but we adopted a baby. This is Lynn and she is 8 months old.”
“Congratulations,” I said.
I stayed at the party for a bit as I didn’t want to appear rude but I just didn’t feel like being around all of those people. I went upstairs to start on my homework.
But I couldn’t concentrate. I kept making mistakes and having to start over.
It didn’t help that I was still feeling nauseous.
And kept having to run to the bathroom to throw up. Eventually I just gave up on the homework for the night and went to bed.
The next morning I was still feeling nauseous when I woke up but managed to avoid throwing up.
I made my way downstairs to the nursery where I feed Lynn. As the youngest I don’t have a lot of experience with babies. Kim’s son Leeroy isn’t much younger than I am. I have only been around Kyle’s son Leo a few times since he was born.
When I came out of the nursery I found Kevin cooking breakfast. He was making some baked eggs.
Which had me racing straight for the bathroom.
Later that afternoon I met Sarah at the festival. She suggested we go skating or snowboarding but I am such a klutz I was sure I would fall down doing those activities and I wasn’t sure if that could harm the baby.
“Ha,” I said. “You know what a klutz I am. I would probably break an arm. I know lets play like we did when we were kids.”
“Sure that sounds fun.”
So we made snow angels.
And built a snowman.
Our snowman turned out really cute and we took a picture with him.
We built an igloo.
And had s snowball fight.
Afterwards we went to the coffee shop for something warm to drink. Sarah got a triple shot espresso with caramel swirl.
I know I am not suppose to have any caffeine so I decided to have tea. I ordered a peppermint tea as I had heard it could help with morning sickness.
I almost told Sarah I was pregnant but then I saw my brother Kaden sitting at the other side of the room. I didn’t want him to overhear as I was not ready for him to know yet that I was pregnant. But there was something else I wanted to talk to Sarah about.
“Hey do you remember my party? There was that boy there with the blue eyes. I danced with him for most of the evening.”
“Oh the cute one you made out with,” she teased.
“Yeah,” I responded blushing. “Well he left something at my house and I only know his first name was Jonathan. I wanted to let him know I have it but I don’t know where he lives or even if he is from around here. Did you know him? You were the one who handled the invites.”
“Yeah but I didn’t invite him. He must have come with someone else or he was a party crasher. You should check with the Hooper sisters they know everyone. Or maybe Gwen. She brought her boyfriend – maybe he knows who that was.”
It was getting late so after we left the coffee shop we both headed home. Before leaving I pulled her in for a big hug and thanked her for the fun day. I had really needed the distraction.
The Hooper sisters were THE most popular girls in the whole school. They were also major snobs and had been picking on me for years for being smart and liking science.
“Hey Trudy, Ruby, do you have a second?”
“I suppose,” Ruby said. Trudy just stood there looking bored.
“Do you remember the boy at my party? The one with the blue eyes?”
“Yeah,” Ruby said. “I remember him dancing with you.”
“And not me. Why any guy would choose nerdy you over me is beyond me. There was obviously something wrong with him,” Ruby said.
“So do you know who he is. I never got his number and he forgot something at my place.”
“Ha ha ha,” Ruby laughed. “Of course he wouldn’t give you his number. What could he want with you. But no, I didn’t know him. Wish I did, he was sure HOT.”
Later I asked Gwen if she knew him but got the same response. She didn’t know him. He just walked in uninvited.
Week 7: February 5 – February 11
The further along I got in my first trimester the more my nausea seemed to increase. I almost always woke up nauseous and most mornings would spend the first hour in the bathroom throwing up. One morning I was thrilled, because while I was nauseous I had managed to go the whole morning without getting sick and even ate a little breakfast. That is until I got on the school bus. Between the smells and the motion I was so sick when we got to school.
That I puked outside in the snow. I really hope no one saw.
Then I was doing fine in class until lunchtime when I walked into the cafeteria and smelled the hotdogs they were serving for lunch.
Once again my stomach rolled. Thankfully, I made it to the bathroom this time.
After school I headed to the library and got some books on pregnancy. I want to be informed about everything.
As I was leaving I saw my brother Kyle. Unfortunately he saw the books I was checking out. I thought about lying to him and telling him they were for a school paper or something but I couldn’t. I knew the truth would come out eventually and then he would know that I had lied.
“I am pregnant,” I admitted. I then went on to explain to him about the party, the alcohol and the boy.
I could tell he was shocked.
But he pulled me in for a big supportive brotherly hug. I asked him not to say anything to anyone else as I was not ready to tell them yet. That so far only Kim knew. He promised not to say anything.
When I got home I turned the book to the section on week 7. According to the book this week my baby is almost the size of a cherry. I also read that by the time I am full term I will have gained between 25 to 35 pounds.
I got up and went and stood in front of the mirror. I was trying to imagine what I would look like at full term.
Later that night I feel asleep on top of the covers with my hand placed protectively over my stomach.
Author’s Note: I have never had kids so my knowledge of pregnancy comes from websites like pregmed.org. So I apologize in advance for any wrong information.